"..This love you've given me, unconditional.."

Christmas celebration went great last night. :) unconditional love. His love is amazing. I'm amazed by you Lord.

Grace. One thing I learnt again, its not about us. Its never about us.

Was terrified to start of the evening. Feelings of anxiety, fear, panic.

thoughts of 

'what if the music doesnt go well?' 

'what if i sing out of tune?' 

'what if i grief the holy spirit?' 

'what if God is not pleased?'

'what if I do something wrong?'

Terrifying.

But this girl forgot. Somehow along the line it became a routine. It became something she felt she had to do. Something she thought she was in charge of. She thought she was stronger. She thought she knew her stuff. She knew it in her head but not in her heart. She failed to see that worshipping him is a lifestyle. She forgot that her God's love for her is unconditional. that she loves him because he first loved her. That who she is to him is more than what she can ever do for him. 

She needed a reminder that his grace is always enough. 

you know sometimes we know something but fail to truly understand it? thats exactly what i felt. agh

thanks for the reminder. 

As long as God is happy.

:)

Its more than enough.

i admit i dislike being vulnerable. I despise the feeling of someone else knowing I'm weak, flawed. I dont like people seeing the tears, seeing pain.  But to love extravagantly, to accept correction, to receive rebuke, openness is a must. Its a journey I'm still on and Robert Frost put it perfectly when he said the road less travelled 'has made all the difference'

The road to humility. Humility in learning and growing. It has made all the difference.

Pride?

My richest gain I count but loss,
And pour contempt on all my pride.

Loads more to learn. More patience, more love, more self control. AGH so so so much to learn.. 

a willing and open heart Lord, I want.

One thing for sure, he is has been faithful.  He assembled the best and most talented worship team for last night and I was honoured to enter the holy of holies with them! to praise with them, to make a new song unto him together. :) My amazing worship team - Yih Ren, Li Teng, Fred Daniel, Kay Teck, Daniel & Elvyna. Looking forward to more practices, more praises and more worships together hehe :)

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in another note :

anyone wanna get married? *grins* 

:D