All other ground is sinking sand

'Humility is not thinking less of yourself. It's thinking about yourself less.' - C.S.Lewis

this blog is now (hopefully) revived!

Your light will shine when all else fails

Such mixed feelings as the day came to an end. Amazed at what a wonderful God I have and realized that through him indeed all blessings flow. Even with so much doubt he is still able to shine his light. I am more than blessed. Too grateful for words for a sustaining Abba, a faithful Father - the one who has never let go despite of my constant breakdowns and shaky faith. To have great parents who have been hugely supportive is an added gift. They never fail to remind me of that greater picture.

Lord, you are faithful.

At the same time, this feeling of leaving won't go away. Not much of sadness but perhaps a melancholic reaction with today being the 'official' last day of IMU. No more familiar faces around the university. Everyone headed to a different direction. Well, it's still the same journey they began with, only this time in a new path. This past two and a half years with our paths converging has been a great one, with ups and downs. Friendships gained and friendships lost. Hearts broken and hearts mended. Spirits weak and then strengthened. *sigh* Its been a great journey and it can only can better.

I am, thankful. and happy. He has a great plan for us. Why is it so easy to forget that at times? Reminds me of an old song they used to play in church..

It's good to remember the goodness of God..

Its back to Captivating (again) for now.

A quote from the previous book - "Though we may fear the test, at the same time we yearn to be tested, to discover that we have what it takes." - John Eldredge, Wild at Heart. It is worth the read for guys AND the girls :)

Blue skies are calling

Thanks to brilliant recommendation by the kukuthing, top of the list of things to do after exam results are -

1. Have Disney Marathon.

2. Watch

a. Lord of the Rings.

b. Glee

c. Grey's Anatomy

3. to be decided

Notice the first few is all about sitting myself down in front of the idiot box and not moving for at least 20 hours? NICE!

:D

Hold me in your arms, never let me go.

I give up. I'm falling back into your arms and holding on desperately. And I'm not ashamed to admit it.

I know that it is finished :)

It is known among my fellow friends that I may have a sleeping problem. (it's not really much of a problem now with exams nearby. haha) And a few have pointed out the negative effects of resorting to medication. In fact, dear tongsampah pointed out that this lack of sleep could be self inflicted.

I would like to point out that I am in no way depressed, suicidal and stressed to the extent of it affecting my sleep. Perhaps, yes, I was devastated for that few weeks, but for now, I just am, nocturnal I suppose. There's this sense of peace nightfall brings me though lately I've just been getting sleepy earlier and earlier.

I have no idea what this post is about. Just wanted to put something new up to celebrate the new layout. whee :)

eos ETA 7 days? 8 days? ah heck. its coming soon. And, learning something new about him everyday. Like how dear papa wakes you up refreshed and alert to study. That though you're tired and easily distracted, he leads you beside the still water and renews your strength. Faith he brings to the lost. Hope, he brings to the hopeless.

I am, blessed. and forever grateful.

Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God which transcends all understanding will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
Phil 4:6-7

Thank you

Ever felt so caught up in things around you that you forget the bigger picture? You see, He's got the whole world in His hands. And yes, panic might have kicked in for a second. The worries there for for awhile now. But how can I ever forget my God who is so big, so strong and so mighty there's nothing my God cannot do ;)



Just a little while longer I wanna pray
Can't get You off my mind so I came to say
Thank You Lord just for loving me
Many times as I do forget
Every need that You have met
Oh thank You Lord, I know You're showing me
You are there when I am down and out
You're holding me, Your love is so amazing
Oh it changed me

I'm having trouble sleeping

Why's it always you and never me
I've never dared to let my feelings free

BLEGH.

the Brown Woman is right, blogging, is therapeutic.

Even if its nonsensical rubbish, its my rubbish. MY rubbish. so there.

i'm blue dabadeedooo

Even after 2 EOSs, I wonder why I STILL PUT MYSELF through it. its a horrible, nasty feeling.

But we will get through.

We will be cute little future healthcare professionals :)

because we're already HALF WAY THERE dammit. at least, we're almost half way there.

itsonlyanothersteppingstonenatasha,itsonlyanothersteppingstone.

I don't deserve this.

Thought to ponder - Christianity. a response to His Grace, not a reaction to His Wrath.

One scarred hand to the other

Someone asked me this today.

'What makes you a woman?'

'Your everything.' She answered her own question and I had to smile. She was engrossed in reading Captivating and I saw the light in her eyes. It had hit her. She was special. A woman of God. A woman loved. That smile said a lot.

Somehow, suddenly, that painful pit in your stomach just goes away. Perhaps somehow, she was right.

Maybe this awful feeling will go away.

I wonder, is this how He feels when we turn our backs on him? When we stop calling? When we decide we don't want to see or talk to Him. When we delete Him from our lives?

So much to learn. Too much unwilling hearts.

Like a rose that never blooms

Its been awhile since the last post. And somehow, dear blog, you were not missed. Til the time came for somewhere to rant. Or cry. You were here all this while, weren't you? You knew I'd be back :')

Nothing much of importance. Insignificant. A promise made. The new path began. But somehow, a little slip. A slight lost of balance. Next thing I knew, I was falling. (yes I know, 'tis so very cheesy)

I did something wrong. Lost focus? Lost direction.

Lord, lead me back.

Somehow.