If you could see what I see..

Its funny how time passes so much now that I’ve grown older. I remember distinctly how slow time used to pass when I was younger. For next week to come, it seemed like forever. And yet, now, next week is just coming to fast. Perhaps it’s because we had every week to look forward to. Now when I don’t want it to come, it of course, wants to come all the more, faster. Perhaps I should anticipate next week, so much til time passes slowly. Ah well, wishful thinking.

An old, nay, elderly (we're taught NOT to be rude in csu haha) man stopped me on my walk back from uni to Vista today. He honked at me and asked for directions to Sri Petaling. Apparently my directions were not clear enough that he parked aside the road and asked me to draw him a map. But of course, he has to mention that I shouldn’t be stopping for any stranger asking for help. Its not as if I go around throwing myself at strangers who seem to need help. But come on la, discernment is there for a reason. There were people with me and the guards were just less than 10 feet away. Common sense would tell you it was safe and the poor uncle really was lost. What happened to good old-fashioned courtesy - where helping strangers was considered a good thing and not insanely dangerous for fear of being mugged, robbed and heaven forbid, kidnapped in broad daylight. What happened to a pleasant ‘thank you for your help’? Instead, all I got was ‘next time when people ask you for directions, WALK AWAY. Its dangerous to help people nowadays.’ Maybe that’s what I should have done, ran for my life when he asked for help. 

Ridiculous if you ask me.

Something should be done. We should feel SAFE walking to and fro uni. And it should be SAFE dammit to want to help people. The spirit of chivalry is dead I tell you. DEAD. If this is how things are going now, I actually can imagine a future where people will just mind their own business-indifferent, rude and oblivious to their surroundings. It doesn’t hurt to stop and smile you know. That’s another one of those ridiculous situations I’ve had to come across lately. What happened to smiling just because I want to? You don’t have to fricking get their whole family history every time you say hi to someone. Nor do you have to worry about how the person will perceive your smile to be. It’s their problem really if they think something else of your smile. A simple smile alone goes a long way. And YET, even that is so hard to accomplish sometimes. Some people ah, they just need a good smack on the head to bring them back down to earth.


Of course, the best part of today was the food. lots and lots of it. (I've a strong notion that they actually put cas-cas (kas-kas?) inside their food. no food can be THAT addictive!) interesting conversations with pervy people. medstudents i tell you. haha. learnt more than i needed to today :/

The best is yet to come

there's so much to say

but nothing to say if you won't listen.

I thought we've been through it all. the high ups and the definite very low lows. (forgive the cacated english)

I've tried my best, only to realize it was exactly that. Just my best. My own efforts. With no help. Not from anyone and definitely not from you. I thought independence showed my maturity. 

It just proved my ignorance.

No more of this self sufficiency, I'm leaving it all up to you. Not because I can. But because I want to. Of course, the fear is crazy. Not knowing what lies ahead, not knowing which step leads where but with only enough light to lead my day.

Plans alone rite, I've got a ton. I thought I was set for at least the next 4 years. (being how I'm sure God brought me here and He'll get me through med school. blek.) And yet, there was something lacking. Something someone pointed out today. its been me just taking for granted the good things. 

but.

tomorrow is a brand new day. 

his mercies are new every morning.

littlest things

we're a bunch of kookies i tell you. kookies

gah! 

i'm losing my confidence. my mind. my everything.

i need. to breathe.

days have been long and the weekend is almost here. 

so why the distress i wonder.

What am i gonna do when the best part of me was always you?

I know it makes no sense, but what else can I do,
How can I move on when I'm still in love with you...

Okay, so here we go. I decided to run for Culture and Religious Rep for SRC with Husting's Day (a forum cum debate thingy) commencing on Friday. Got 2 tasks to complete by next week and campaigning starts tomorrow! i am scared. BUT. its not about me anymore, is it?

I have been more than blessed. To have friends who sacrifice their time, their effort. its not easy! haha. but the journey's been fun so far with them by my side.

note to self : Laugh more. Frown less. Complain not, Love more.

You're the only one

Hit me like a ray of sun
Burning through my darkest night
You’re the only one that I want
Think I’m addicted to your light 

Lecithin / sphingomyelin ratio

Reid Index

Raynaud's Phenomenon

Microscopic Polyangiitis

Hypersensitive pneumonitis

These names are staring back at me now even as I attempt to waste more time not studying. I don't know if its the stress or the adrenaline rush.. but I'm not liking it very much.

i miss sleep :(

sleep.. where for art thou!

I've realized that pleasing people shouldn't be a chore. Wanting to make people happy should not be an obligation. And I'm learning from the best people around. Funny how God puts the right people in your life in the exact right season you need them.

Trust in the Lord, and do good; dwell in the land, and feed on His faithfulness. —Psalm 37:3 

I've been counting my blessings.. and realizing that he has indeed been faithful.. (its up to us anyway to see the cup as half full or half empty. blek.) for the funniest mum and dad with the biggest hearts. for a crazy brother (who i havent heard from in ages *sigh*sigh*SIGH*). for friends who make the world go round, friends with different skin tone. friends who look radianttt, friends who sshiinneee :P blek.

i think.. 

i'm in love.

and its a good place to be. :)

I swore I’d never fall again
But this don’t even feel like falling
Gravity can’t forget
So pull me back to the ground again

Last one standing

This is where I'll find the strength to carry on
This is where I'll find the strength to stand

Coming out to breathe

Orientation is O-V-E-R!

                               * MEDT109 bootcamp. Can you survive? *

I didn't bring a camera for last night's finale night. nevertheless, after a rough start, everything went smoothly with the ever amazing Korwoi and dear Elvyna emceeing and making sure everything went well. Tho there was a lack of communication among us finale night people, me thinks the event went pretty well.

Of course, no one needs to know this but I was pleased (happified, really) with my amazing amazing friends who did so much! The time machine, the backdrop was purely them and they did an awesome job with everything!  pictures as proof to come soon! oh, also not forgetting the disco ball which my dear neighbour and friend Losh Bosh and I managed to complete haha. after sleepless nights lol. everytime someone bounced it i think my heart bounced as well. agh. also, i'm awed la. amazing people (who i heart *sigh*) came dressed up haha. ABBA, Marilyn Monroe, Elvis, Whitney.. guys, i hoped you had fun! we had a pimp in the crowd, and some really original retro outfits. all was good. :)

We need a proper costume party tho. I might just come as Big Bird or the Cookie Monster.

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funny when things happen and bring new perspective.. a new outlook on life. a different way of perceiving things.

we may not always like each other. but heck, we've made it this far. There's so much to improve in myself. To change. After everything I've done and said, I find it hard to see that his grace is still more than enough. His love is still there. While we were still sinners, Christ died for us. —Romans 5:8 I don't know what my Christ sees in me but I'm glad he still loves me. I don't know what He saw in me but I'm glad he believed, In spite of my condition that His mission was to rescue my heart. Don't understand the sacrifice, why You gave up Your life for the sake of my soul..

I still don't understand. I don't deserve all this. Teach me O Lord to obey you.

Speak slowly, I can't hear you

"My eyes are so blurry
I guess I'm young but I feel so weary"

So it goes folks, she was diagnosed with a case of otitis media. The kind where you feel your ears are going to pop out anytime. not the nicest thing to have right now. :( I guess the silver lining to the whole thing is knowing what kind of drugs the doctors' got me on..

In another note, Prof JPJ and Prof Srikumar MIGHT perform for finale night this Saturday.. so thats at least one more reason to come!

another nonsensical post, this is.

sigh.

over and out.

I'm alone on a bicycle for two..

Seems like bits&pieces has been quiet for awhile. its not that i dont like being under the scrutiny of others. nor (like someone put it so meanly) do i find joy in 'discovering how many sad lives out there actually read this pathetic thing' (see, evil one, i quoted thee!)
Its been a rough road the past few weeks ane she just needed a breather. to fill everyone up on things, i've been given the honour of falling SEEEEEEEK a week before summatives. N it's not a good thing, trust me. The mood swings have not been much help either.i predict i've a ton of apologies to send out by the end of next week. Despite the laughless days, i am in fact, having a great week. haha. I have great sisters who i know will be there :) and i have an awesome grandma who makes d best chicken soup! Sigh. Okay, me thinks its the codeine kicking in. It's cool knowing exactly what you're forced to swallow every few hours:)