So Close

when she has 3 posts in a day you know something is seriously wrong.

especially with exams in exactly a week

but then again, we all have our vices, no?

some take a walk after the mugging

some sleep.

some eat.

but me, i do this.

i waste space in the internet.

with unnecessary crap

haha.

so, this post is going to be different.

i promise you.

you see,

i realized something today

i have the greatest family in the world. 

ask me why.

because its my family 

i am sure of that :)

i miss them already 

So close to reaching that famous happy end
Almost believing this was not pretend
And now you’re beside me and look how far we’ve come
So far we are so close

How could I face the faceless days
If I should lose you now?
We’re so close
To reaching that famous happy end
And almost believing this was not pretend
Let’s go on dreaming for we know we are
So close
So close
And still so far

I've had the time of my life

yep. ive had the time of my life today

in the room.

by myself.

after cake.

after roti jala and sate.

after teh tarik.

after whiskey & vodka.

on deepavali.

trying to study.

BUT

how to study with people running and screaming around??

how to study with people just downstairs enjoying themselves. with food.. spoilt with choice!

yet she is better than that dammit

yes, she can overcome temptation and shall refrain from petty small talk

and wonderful glorious food.

u guys better come for deepavali next year.

or else.

You'll never walk alone - Elvis

had a long week. full of surprises. its good to be with the books.
the mugging. heavenly. who can ask for anything better??

thank you dears for the smiles,

for the thoughtful random smses that have made my day everyday!

for the calls, making sure i'm still alive. :D

for your thoughts

your love.

to the wonderfulest most amazingest and awesomest gorgeous women imu has to offer. hehe

and whats awesome is that iknowthem :)

sabby my other half, i heart you

ziaa my twin.. liling my other other half.. lol

Ash! elvynaa, meiixxinnn! anushya.. the list goes on..

Phil 1:3 - I thank my God every time i think of you!

hug :)

we're pressed but not crushed, persecuted not abandoned, struck down but not destroyed.

old news

a penny for your thoughts?

Watch this if you're Malaysian.

just because.

Bagi bangsa ini
kami berdiri
dan membawa doa kami kepadamu
sesuatu yang besar
pasti terjadi
dan mengubahkan negeri kami
Hanya namaMu Tuhan ditinggikan
atas seluruh bumi.

“We cannot change our past. We can not change the fact that people act in a certain way. We can not change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude.” 

Charles Swindoll.

Broken World

Promises shattered

Answers don't come

Friends say goodbye

Plans come undone

Dreams get crushed

Lies get told

Words can turn cruel

Hearts can grow cold

In a broken world where we cry to feel

Some hope that helps these hearts to heal

You're my strength, You're my refuge

In a broken world, Jesus I'm holding to you.

You make sense of the madness

And you make darkness flee

You bring such a calm

To the chaos in me

Show me life

Tell me truth

Day after day I keep running to You

by ATS

I fall so far

yet, you come to where I am.

'I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me and 90% of how I react to it.' 

Charles Swindoll.

we can do this.

Wouldn't it be nice

deepavali's on monday

again with the questions, 'are u inviting anyone?' 'why you never bring anyone to see your family during open house?'. one of the worst - 'you no friends ah?!' 

its not my fault deepavali falls on a time everyone's mugging to death for exams. 

then again, the looks on their faces are priceless when the answer is - 

'i have no friends. i need friends.'

ps:i'm stealing liling's idea of using random songs as the title. giving the brain a break. :D

to my room, to the friends back home :)

Ke hadapan bilik Natasha yang amat dirindui dan disayangi. Saya berharap anda dalam keadaan sihat-sihat sahaja.

Ingatikah engkau masa dulu, ketika kaulah tempat perlindunganku daripada adik yang annoying? daripada kawan yg mau dielak dan kadang2 juga dari ibubapa yang.. entahlah. haha

ba, trasa pla tiba2 mo imbas2 balik zaman sklh when bm ruled! time form4 and form5 ngan pacik2 and macik2 skalian. time nda payah risau psl stadi. wui, ingat ko si bunjut? mana kau?? bnyk pla salah aku sama dia. entah dia sudah maafkan aku ngan c pacik ka. 

alah.. time yg kitaorg ckp mo prepare dbate KUNUN padahal abis bergosip d library. time kita study. time pi labuan mcm org kejakunan. buat projek. reka cipta yg nda pernah menjdi. mana sdah ko shar! mana ko as! ba, dare i say this? kdang2 rindu jugak ngan sekolah. biar ckit jak..

skrg, suma org entah d mana. 1 di johor. 1 sibuk berdating d sunway. aduina, satu lagi di mesir n satu lgi mo jln pi nz. mcm kamu org. ingat kmu kena marah meimei? kerja rumah yg nda pernh siap. mengajar add maths haha. aku jadi kau, kau jadi aku? 

ba, nda lama lagi ada nie mo kahwin. aku menunggu jemputan wui! jgn ko lupa kertas A3 ngan lagunya skali! 

jangan ko stress. 

ingat,

ok ba klu ko.

random post. eos is NEAR. go study.

his grace, i need.

natasha is officially in a wedding mood!

blame Jo for making me compile her wedding songs! agghh ( i joke i joke..) 

song of the day - I Could Not Ask For More by Edwin McCain. 

isocanmeltrightnow

my utmost for his highest. coz its not about me anymore. it never was, yet why when circumstance come our way we falter so easily? To dismantle doubt is never easy. so many questions! so much doubts. i want answers. i want this, i want that.

but no more.

the irony of some things astound me. religiousness? piousness? the look-at-me attitudes? less of me Lord, more of you.

i

cant

do this anymore

i cant.

bliss <33

exams are not over. its a friday. so, bout 2 weeks more to go til it is over.

Had cf today and was at first a bit hesitant to go (blame the flu, lack of sleep, possible late night tonight) yet.. I went..

because

em, guys and girls, family and friends..

listen up.

i'm.

engaged.

to be married.

soon?

sort of.

he's wonderful. :)

my heart finally beats for a reason!

the flowers smell sweeter

the blues are bluer

greens are greener

birds are chirping louder

sighh

this layout doesnt mention the day i post something.

so yes, its a saturday. a wonderful day.

emo. the word should be banned i tell you!

happy mugging guys. :)

my day

You're in a better place, I've heard a thousand times
And at least a thousand times I've rejoiced for you
But the reason why I'm broken, the reason why I cry
Is how long must I wait to be with you

I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now

Help me Lord cause I don't understand your ways
The reason why I wonder if I'll ever know
But, even if you showed me, the hurt would be the same
Cause I'm still here so far away from home

I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now

In Christ, there are no goodbye
And in Christ, there is no end
So I'll hold onto Jesus with all that I have
To see you again
To see you again

And I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
Won't you give me strength to make it through somehow

I've never been more homesick than now.