Carry me

Having my cousin back from the States for these past 2 weeks have been a blessing although I would have liked to spend more time with her. Spending time with family, is a blessing I know I sometimes take for granted. I admit, even my parents I know I disappoint at times. Little things have opened my eyes, issues like giving in, tolerance and sacrifice make me realize how selfish and wicked our hearts can be, that if it wasn't for the cross, we would all be hopeless, dying creatures. And yet we live with reason, we strife with purpose, we press on because of that hope. That we were meant for more. That in the end, its not about the perfect job or finding the right guy, it's about being complete in Him. And that is a lesson to learn.

Came across this highlighted phrase from A.W. Tozer's The Pursuit of God :

'It will require a determined heart and more than a little courage to wrench ourselves loose from the grip of our times and return to Biblical ways'

Oh to be a lady of diligence, conviction, virtue, patience, devotion, contentment and everything else..

a lady in waiting

With all honesty, painful words from people who mattered stopped me from sharing life through this medium. Words, unlike sticks and stones, were not supposed to break me, yet they did. And with all that hurt, decided I would rather pen my daily thoughts on paper.

No more, though. I will praise the Lord, I will tell of the wondrous things he has done!

‎"That I may publish with the voice of thanksgiving, and tell of all thy wondrous works." Psalm 26:7

A year has passed by too quickly. New country, new friends, new memories made. Friendships gained and friendships lost. To look in the mirror and realize, wow, you are 22. So much to learn. So much.

I strayed for the longest time. But yet He who created the heavens and the earth would still love me? Incomprehensible. Impossible. Yet, ultimately, truest of all truths. He loves me. Full of mercy and grace, is my Lord.

Life in 2012 will be a hectic one, but if my God is for me, who can be against me? hmm. too much thoughts running crazy around through my mind at this moment. Where to start? What to say? oh for a prayer partner, where we can encourage each other to keep God's perspective on our commitment to be all that God wants us to be.