updatess

sorry for the lapse of posts.. believe me, its nothing intentional. exams are coming nearer way too fast and.. yes, she has to study. the internet doesnt bring her as much joy as it used to. or maybe its just the stress? or the prolonged absence of an internet connection in her home?

agh, she stares at a picture of E. hystolytica, wondering - what should she eat tonight? (by the way, E hystolytica causes bloody diarrhea. You can die. yep, and after studying all these parasites, only one conclusion can be made.

We should all stop eating.

Theres too much microbes in the world.

ooh, we should stop drinking water as well. Lets not forget the our dear Giardia lamblia and Entamoeba hystolytica.

this is purely random.

she wonders why IMU doesnt have a proper study area for students APART from pbl rooms (which are only open during weekdays) and the library.

she remembers a story about a thermostat and a thermometer.

Are you simply reflecting your climate around you? or are you setting the climate around you.

taking charge? or sitting back?

complaining or acting?

we were made for greater things.

the week has been crazy yet again agh! one thing that stood out was the fact i was extremely annoyed with a certain someone during my hospital visit yesterday.. Shami (my housemate) was kind enough to lend me an ear.. girl, u are definitely very patient! haha. Sufi was there as well to hear the annoyed-me complaining about this particular person.

then it hits me on my way back to klang.

who am i to judge this other person?

(this person's gender and name shall not be revealed due to the fact gossiping is out of the question. hehe)

What made me think i am any better than him/her? very, very humbling. as Sarah puts it, hate the sin, not the sinner.

so, no, I'm not the better person. in fact, i could be the worst compared to him/her.

its a struggle we have to take on. accepting each other with all our weaknesses.

to forgive! agghhh.. i cant do this on my own. But if He could.. the sins of every single one. maybe.. maybe I could?

'Thoughtlessness, self-absorption, preoccupation, negligence - you expect those from the average run of your acquaintances, but not from your best friend. From him you want perfection. You want him to read your mind" - Emma in Saving Graces

Phone calls, random drives, the stars at night.. remember?

I want you to.

when u get sick of books, go take ridiculous photos.

taken 5 minutes ago when she should be studying. >=/ --- angry face.

Pls still love me ash :(


Need i say more?

signing off.

annoyed and sleepy.

i miss

i miss my orientation group.


i'm off to a cousin's cousin's wedding. second cousin? cousin twice removed? :/ oh well. feast your eyes of z dress of z night! hehehe. ironic how i missed a wedding last week only to go for another this week :/

a premonition! of a wedding.. ah yes :)

signing off

extremely sleepy woman

the week

forgive the lack of posts.. the week has been, well, crazy, to put it simply. 

lectures attended and lectures missed, nights spent mugging and nights spent emo-ing over lost wallets (will get to that later), days passing in a sec and hours that are forever. of punctured tires and cute cockroaches. 

Of dead cockroaches? and heartwarming movies :), of annoying characters and new friendships. Of sleepless nights and sunsets! of waiting for sunsets (ahem..) and getting lost. of perasaning and kepoh-ing. of parasites and drugs. :/ 

of seeing him everywhere all the time. of him showing you he's there when you feel like crap. of realizing again and again that its all about him. seriously.

that was week 8! or is it week 9? :/ lost count. crap.

oh well, on tuesday saya ikut Ashy Ash pergi ke Carrefour untuk membeli tikusss.. Granted, i was never a rodent person. never was. even after Ratatoullie (is that how you spell it) came out, me figured only Pixar (or Disney) could make rodents look cute.

again, they proved me right with...the darling cockroach in Wall-E. If only the cockroaches in my bathroom was as cook. they wouldnt be that much of a nuisance now, would they??




notice the similarities??

anywho Ash got a white mouse that, i have to admit, adorable. Bono is his name! hehe. check out her blog for pictures (she's a awesome writer as well! hehe) we left Carrefour bout 6-ish and when i was back at my place, i realized the wallet was GONE. oh-so-gone.

we cari-cari the entire apartment and NO SUCH LUCK. arghhhh.. to cut the very very lon story short, me wents to a friend's place --> fatin aka sayang/mylove/dahling yg sometimes curang :P 

and with her wonderful heart, drove us to Carrefour where we tried retracing the missing wallet. after awhile, realizing that THERE WAS NO LUCK finding it.. 

Fatin asked - did u cancel your credit cards?? of course, the very responsible me said ' NO! should I?' hahahahahah. (ok ok, it didnt sound funny when it happened.. but looking back, it was pretty crazy.

The police report story is another crazy one. i'll keep that for the next post!

God never lets anything happen by chance. it sucks when it happens and you feel horrible, theres nothing wrong with being angry.. thats why he gave us feelings in the first place (cue song:feelings... nothing more than feeliiingggsss...).

its whether we allow it to break us or make us stronger. If it wasnt for this tuesday event, i wouldnt have realized how blessed i am with such amazing friends! for showing their support, for the ride, for the breakfasts, for the teh-tariks, for the directions, for the laughter, for the never lacking hugs. i like :) 

you all are amazing! they'll prolly never read this, but guys, u rock!

the next day (Wed) was movie day with Zia and Ash... went to the bank in the morning with Pinkie to get a new atm card.. when we came out of the car, pinkie points out that one of the tires needed more air..

naturally, i put it off and decided to do it the next time i came out. haha. oh well, went to puchong on thursday to do my license and guess what???? ---> punctured tire.. 

natasha refrains from jumping out and throwing herself at the traffic 

while she makes a swift decision to drive slowly to the petrol station to get help.. again, another long story. but to cut it short, I got my license done whheehheee! it took us 45 minutes to get to the jpj office. and 5 minutes to get it done! ughh. i'm slowly resenting the driving! :/ 

oh, and they charged me RM30 to tampal tayar. the evil people i tell you! (apparently it should cost bout RM10 only.. so guys, note this down the next time u need to get a tire tampal-ed)

friday even crazierr arghh.. my phone, as most of my friends know, have decided to die on me anytime it wants. probably due to the fact ive never pampered it with tender loving care :/ oh well, me lost my contacts! arghh.. 

the crazy thing is, not all the contacts were deleted all of the sudden. its as if the phone was playing the 'guess which number i deleted' game with me. haha! cf on friday was welcoming party for new batch me208 and in the morning when i thought i just couldnt songlead that afternoon, 3 wonderful people reminded me of what was most important - Him. the perfect pursuer.. (thanks Sabby, Joanne and Jeremy, you guys are awesome hehe) 

To realize that he is still God, above everything, above what we are currently feeling.. when we worship, its not about us anymore. its about how his amazing grace allows us this new day. so yea, practice was kinda last minute, but God was there! 

for greater things are yet to come and greater things are still to be done! its crazy la. thanks papa, for being there. thanks Sabby (for holding me accountable, making sure we run together in this. hugss xD)

to sum up the week up -
Blessed assurance, Jesus is mine!
O what a foretaste of glory divine!
Heir of salvation, purchase of God,
born of his Spirit, washed in his blood.

This is my story, this is my song,
praising my Savior all the day long;
this is my story, this is my song,
praising my Savior all the day long.

Perfect submission, perfect delight,
visions of rapture now burst on my sight;
angels descending bring from above
echoes of mercy, whispers of love.

Perfect submission, all is at rest;
I in my Savior am happy and blest,
watching and waiting, looking above,
filled with his goodness, lost in his love.

sudden burst of jiwangness

There's no combination of words
I could put on the back of a postcard
No song that I could sing
But I can try for your heart
Our dreams, and they are made out of real things
Like a, shoebox of photographs With sepiatone loving..

Edward: What do you want? Who do you want me to be?
Will: Yourself. Good, bad, everything. Just show me who you are for once.
Edward: I have been nothing but myself since the day I was born. And if you can't see that, it's your failing, not mine. -Big Fish.

I need us.

Upon my bed by night,
I sought him whom my soul loves;
I sought him, but found him not;
I called him, but he gave no answer.
I will rise now and go about the city,
in the streets and in the squares;
I will seek him whom my soul loves.

- Song of Solomons 3

the curtains close. the audience leave. the night is no more.

you?

i look. you're gone.

you;

the essence of my very being;

whom i thought had to be pursued;

was in fact the pursuer;

i turn;

hmm.

you never left

happy belated merdeka?

yes, its 1 september 2008. in 15 days will be the day we should be celebrating merdeka.. coz if memory does not fail me, 16th september was when sabah and sarawak was gabung-ed with Malaya to form Malaysia. woott! the reason for studying history for spm finally surfaces!

anyway, celebrated mum + cousin's birthday last night tho the official day is today! Aunty Mie (my lovely mum's twin) wasnt able to make it :( but 2 birthday babies were better than none! hahaah

yep, that is the crazy/emo/annoying/uber-cool/cacated at times/very crazy baby brother. purpose for uploading the photo? I LOOK SHORT! ugh. how often do i get to say that, rite? :P

rather unflattering photo but heck..

i heart annoying-younger-brothers!

= ]

and yes, thats cake icing on his face. things got pretty messy. not very messy. but messy enough :/

this girl is gonna go clean up her room and prepare breakfast (at 12.17am)..

thought : I wanna be able to lay everything down.everything. "The people who know their God shall be strong, and carry out great exploits" Dan 11:32 I want to know him.. more.

Daring to believe

Dear bloggie,

He has privileged us to live above the ordinary human plane of life. Those who want to be ordinary and live on a lower plane can do so, but as for me, I will not!

For greater things are yet to come, and greater things are still to be done..

Dare we ask for greater things? Dare we challenge God for abundance of blessing? for more of his anointing? Dare we wrestle with him til he has do dislodge our bones? Dare we ask for the Jacob's bravery, etching his desire in our hearts - 'I will not let you go until you bless me!'

With that, dare we receive what he has in store for us? Are we willing to give up ourselves. To be less of us and more of him? For 'greater is he that is in you, than he that is in the world' I John 4:4

An afternoon with family, i am blessed. my papa, thank you.

weirdness

had the creepiest dream last night. Of all the people in the world to dream about, My dear lecturer Annie T crept into my dream. :/

We were both traveling somewhere together and she had to go take a shower but the water apparently had enzymes inside :/ dreaming about lecturers.creepy.very.creepy.

o.0

ah yes, the bliss of being home.

not worrying about what to eat, no fretting over unwashed clothes or smelly shoes.

Having the brother and cousin to annoy, using the car with no worries over paying for petrol. Movie-ing with the family.. ah yes, the weekend has been fantabulous!

To live is so startling it leaves little time for anything else.
-Emily Dickinson-

Undone

Even in defeat

The face of tragedy

Still you'd have to say that I found victory

In brokenness comes beauty, Divine fragility

Reminding me of nail scarred hands

Reaching out for me

To the cross I run

Holding high my chains undone

Now I am finally free

Free to be what I've become

Undone.

To understand the extent of being undone.. We who are nothing. being undone? being completely free? holding high our heads.. why? because of his mercy.. God could have chosen to sit on any seat. yet why choose the mercy seat? See how deep the father's love for us!

Its been a crazy week with time passing by faster and faster. its already the end of the week AGAIN. things have been crazy.. good crazy! its been a challenge indeed. to praise him during the good times, we all can! but when circumstances come against me.. well, lets say its harder to lift these hands.

I just read a note posted by amazing-est-cousin-in-the-world, Sarah concerning the recent story that surfaced about a particular pastor in Aus. And this site really encouraged me as we face questions we have about our faith and our leaders. http://www.nextwaveonline.com/comment.asp?ID=231
a part of it : 'It is often only when we see the scale of human frailty laid bare before us that we can appreciate the true power of redemption.' it couldnt have been said better.. we pray together. we intercede. coz our God is greater than the things around us. i wanna see mountains move!

ew and aunty, we meet again :) + other random stuffs

pictures are SO long overdue but yes, to make betty a tinsy bit jealous.. heres us ex mufyians (3 of us anyway :/ ) enjoying an afternoon of sushi, sushi and a bit of Baskins & Robbins.


yepp, aunty aivee all the way from syd and the always busy ew together with myself finally managed to sneak in a lunch. not much pictures tho :/ ai vee they're with you!! ughh.

ok ok.. very random. the thingys behind us are apparently real antlers. :/ yes, random. very random muaahahaha

after a rather last minute decision to surprise my mum for her birthday, I decided to go back home for the Merdeka weekend..

Could have left Friday instead of Saturday but of course i couldnt miss out on the ragging orientating of the NEW batch.. ahh. no more being juniors. no more excuse to run around uni like mad people. no more excuse to shout at someone who's on the ground floor when u're on the 4th floor :/ *SIGHS* at least when you're a junior, people will say 'Ugh, their just juniors' but now they'll go 'what on earth is wrong with these people!' so, with new seniority comes new responsibility! we shall now walk with full dignity and grace, smiling only when necessary, trying hard at all times to look busy and nerdy. (this is APPARENTLY SOMEONE's aim in life right now. *cough** she APPARENTLY (again) has the desire to develop muscles by dragging papa patho ALL AROUND UNI. ah yes, some of us are just gifted in that.

sorry. rambling nonsense at the moment.

anyway, yes, i am back home. first thing an aunty in church said when she saw me - 'Eh, what are you doing here? Why come back? Didn't you just come back the other day?' ah yes, i am back whether they like it or not!! Ironic how they complain us kids never come back to our hometowns yet when we do come back we're asked why the thought of coming back even crossed our minds. :/

will be in Sandakan til monday then off back to the hills of Jalil where the monkeys and the terrapin play! wwwhheeeeee

Went for youth service today in church and worship was amazing. Songs that were forgotten long ago was brought back today. I forgot how much the simplicity of some songs can penetrate right through the heart of worship. Coz its all about him..

Saat ku mengangkat tangan
Yesus menurunkan tangannya
Dia menjamah
B'rikan ku kekuatan
Saat Ku panggil namanya
Kurasakan kasih kuasanya
Tak berubah
Sekarang dan selamanya

Sometimes all we need is to surrender. to confess. to believe. To be Mary instead of Martha. indeed, Dia menjamah, brikan ku kekuatan. kami perlukan keajaiban mu, kami butuhkan sentuhan tanganMu.Kami tak dapat jalan sendiri, kami perlu kau Tuhan.

To see youth back home so passionate for God.. speechless. the work God has begun.. he will continue til completion. whheee!

yes, a bit crazy now. . craving sleep (something ive not been able to do for quite awhile)

This woman is prolly gonna go get some sleep. she cant believe she's in her OWN BED! ah yes, heaven!

I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now -Undone by Mercyme-

three little pigs and the big bad wolf, big bad wolf, big bad wolf..

yes, after disappearing for awhile from the net, I AM BACK!

ah yes, it is now the 4th week of sem2 in IMU and so far, been covering a bit of bacteriology, pathology and immunology.. ah yes. am at the IMU library now with Ash in the next computer supposedly doing PBL *ahem ahem*

Learning Issue #1 : Etiology of chest pain....
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Learning Issue #6 : pathophysiology of blablalblaaa AND difference of arteriosclerosis and atherosclerosis. so, i typed in google. instead of typing 'difference of arteriosclerosis and atherosclerosis,' my fingers (having a mind of their own) typed in 'facebook.com', 'gmail.com' and 'blogger.com' instead. hmm. must be some kind of disease going around. Procrastinatitis or something :/

ah yess, back to the title. 3 little pigs and the big bad wolf.. had pathology lab this morning and armed with notebook and pen in hand, we entered the lab with high expectations to be better educated people by the time lab ended. (or so we wished we were la) ah, wishful thinking. what i learned was to remember that decribing the anatomy of an appendix is like.. lets say, the story of the 3 little pigs and the big bad wolf. yes, for a good 15 minutes or more, we were given the glorious opportunity to reminisce over our childhood with singing the all time classic - 3 little pigs and the big bad wolf :) look on the guy's face (who was asked to decribe the whole thing) : priceless!

Note from Miss Annie : You must study, study and STUDY!

Friend #1 : *gasps* How profound! What a noble profession.

Me : *chuckles evilly in the inside while trying to look seriously at the slides*

i will not be forgetting today's lab for awhile.

more interesting news! been driving around kl! for those who have been in the car. i applaud your bravery. still having trouble getting used to the roads.. :/ maintaining the car is a feat itself as well.

even more interesting news, my bible.. yea, i lost my bible in uni.. i left it somewhere and now its gone! my cherished small NLT Bible. Tho it was already torn in two, it was mine :( now, someone else has it.. truly everything happens for a reason.. My prayer is that whoever has it at this very moment will be OVERCOME WITH GUILT AND START REPENTING ON THE SPOT! haha.. not really, i hope that whoever has it will be blessed by it. Wherever it is, may it bring joy and peace to its new owner. yes, i honestly hope for that..

the rantings shall continue later. hafta head over to patho lab again for a different patho session.. ah yes, song of the day : three little pigs and the big bad wolf :)

the week

okay, the week has been short, extremely short. week 2 of the new sem is coming to an end.. both has its pros and cons i suppose? internet at the apartment is down. SIGH. pictures to be uploaded very very soon! whheeee

anyway, interesting time here at uni i have to admit. amazing things in store definitely :) mornings have now taken a new meaning.. sab, an amazing girl with the biggest heart I've ever seen.. She never fails to remind me of the good things he has done for me.

okay, this post is extremely randomla.. (but then again, i am supposedly supposed to rant.. hence blog name - rantings. hmm) anyhoo, me mets up with EWWWWW and aunty ai vee! whheeeehheee. i've missed them.. mufy times were good times :) UNfortunately, a certain someone is in Perth right now dunno doing what when she was supposed to BE WITH US HERE IN MALAYSIA. hmpfff. betty, u better come back soon before we rot away! but yes, EW looked amazing as ever and aivee was as crazy as she was before (i mean that as a compliment, of course.) as much as she tried, my dear aivee could not trick us with the aussie accent. still malaysian.. still malaysian :P

hmmm.. i drove yesterday.yes i did. in kl. me. drove. kl. crazy place. cacat. never again? perhaps. but. will again. soon. perhaps? haihhhh

sms from brother at 19:59, 30 July 2008 (1 minute ago) - 'Adui.go study la u.hahahahahah.he gave me 3 injections in my a** u noe.i tink my bantat got lubang ady.' ahh, the joy of having little brothers telling u things u didnt want to know.

pbl notes on my side.. Problem based Learning. 12 learning issues. yes.

12.

not 7.. not 8.. 12

12.

more than 11, less than 13.

12.

to be started soon. to be finished before monday.yes. i'm predicting a little last minute work.. i cant recall the word for doing work to the very last minute. what is it?! ARGH. i hate it when the word is at the tip of your tongue but u just cant seem to recall. ugh. brain not functioning as fast its supposed to. microbes taking too much memory space?

hmm

i realized i knew nothing about my God. there is so much to learn! so much to discover. no more being complacent.. no more asking why why why. more of just sitting. being still. knowing, even if you dont understand right now, the abundance of his grace. his mercy. his glory. his favour. his blessing.

i am. overwhelmed. amazed. in awe. his majesty. his glory. his spirit. u see, aside from him, nothing matters. it never did. it never should.

in love? with him. race is long, race is hard. yet running with you.. makes it easy.

thoughts after the Dark Knight haha

it is always darkest before dawn. Ever wondered why things dont happen the way you wanted them to? But then again, the issue of dying to yourself comes up. What did we mean when we deny ourselves and pick up the cross? what did it mean when we said no looking back? What my amazing-yet-annoying cousin said in her latest email was a total wake up reminder. wake up call? definitely.

quote from her hamba-ness :)

'Things happen for us not to us.... U may have fallen down on yr cross but the Lord says it's time to rise up. U r not define by yr past but prepared by it.' Sharon, God never fails to remind me how blessed I am to have someone to keep me on the ground :) fortunately for me, your 'it isa very nice' is NOT MISSED *evil laugh* I hope her words encourages someone else as much as it has encouraged me.. Pressed but never crushed, struck down? not destroyed.

well, pictures of ze holiday vill not be facebooked.. but here's one or two random pictures.. oh oh, and ze cheesecake factory! vhere everyone must go to at least vonce in zeir lifetime to get fatter (pls read with russian accent). of course the cakes are not worth fatty-ness but heck, u'd think it was during the moment.

note the 2 pages of just CHEESECAKES AFTER CHEESECAKES... :D

ok, thats all for the pictures :) to you-know-who, i shall not degrade myself by posting more pictures in fb. its embarassing enough as it is. muahahha.

church in 6 hours.. sleep needed..

the end.

this song, the sum of what I feel i need to say?

Hidup ini banyak persoalan

Di mana harus ku temui jawapannya

Sungguh ya Tuhan ku tak mengerti

Ke mana harus ku melangkah Mencari sinar

Hidup ini penuh liku nya

Menuntut perjuangan iman sejati

Ku cari jawapan dan pengertian

Suka duka silih berganti

Tiada satu sandaran kehidupan

Dengarkanlah bapa bicara hidup ini

Ya Abba ya bapa

Ku seru nama MuYang Maha kudus

Kuatkan hatiku, Teguhkan iman ku

Tempoh dosa dunia

Ya Abba ya Bapa

Peganglah tanganku

Tuntunlah jalanku

Hidup kita penuh dengan godaan(cobaan)

Rintangan tentangan(Halangan)

Tanpa Dia kita akan kehilangan di dunia yang penuh dengan kehancuran kemusnahan

Dihatiku hanya Kau lah yang satu

Kekuatan keteguhan yang ku perlu

Yesus ku Kau lah Raja atas segala raja

Yang layak ku puji dan ku sembah atas segalanya

(By : The Chozen)

Great faith is the product of great fights. Great testimonies are the outcome of great tests. Great triumphs can only come out of great trials.

Smith Wigglesworth

another post

she sits on a bed watching a wrestling reality show in Discovery Channel on a Tuesday night in KK while typing away on her dad's laptop while her dad reads the newspaper on the other side of the very comfortable hotel room. She looks up and wonders for awhile why the water tap is on when no one is in the bathroom. She figures theres something wrong with the tap but couldnt be bothered to check on it. She looks back to the screen and realizes she should be doing her cop report but instead she's blabbering on a post where no one might even read. she thinks - 'its just to make myself happy'. She knows someone will read! she laughs evilly.

she sees the monkey and laughs at the irony. monkey. monkey thinks.

she is told the randomness annoys a certain someone. for that someone, she will try to be more annoying. she wants to watch everybody loves raymond. she cant seem to sleep for the past few days. damn the jetlag-ness! she smells of durian. yes indeed, she does.

She feels content. She is amazed at how amazing her God is at revealing even in the littlest things. She is realizing yet again that he restores what he takes away. He heals. He forgives. She is in love with him. for the very fact he first loved her. for the fact He constantly pursues her even when she is the least desirable, least pursueable.

'Why is it that many of us strive for years to attain spirituality through methodologies, programs and techniques; and when blueprints for success fail, we give up and resign ourselves to a life of mediocrity, frustration and regression??' she wonders. 'What is the abundant life of which God spoke about? Why do I feel as if I can never attain it' As she thinks of the next sentence to type, she recalls the wonderful durian that she ate just an hour ago at the side of the road near Likas hospital.


Tembaga durian, D24, Buah Emas, Udang Merah, 101, D99.. the list goes on.. bittersweet? go for the tembaga. Sweet and thick.. D24? or d101 maybe.. there's a different kind for everyone. soft and bitter? gooey and sweet? dark yellow? or pale ivory? of course, one has to get used to the smell first then taste. love it or hate it, u cant ignore it :)

ah yes, she got the durian gene from her dad. He who can differentiate the different kinds of durian by taste. its a gift i tell you, a gift!

She realizes she's gone off track. She reminisces over the amazingness that has been the past 3 weeks of holidays.. from home with the her dogs to 17 hours of a plane ride with cuckoo thing 1 and cuckoo thing 2 (ah, she laughs again to herself. she misses them badly. she wishes they were here.. ) She is thankful that she was given a fantastic break that will never be forgotten.. So much memories. SO much pictures for blackmail! she grins again.

she realizes she has a long day tomorrow. She met up with Lannel, Vanessa, Freddy, Sheila, Anthea and Dilyn just now and wishes she had more time with them. she has to leave on thursday :( sometimes theres so much to be done but so little time! she is going to Shalom home tomorrow and possibly meeting up with Kev and Grace. two of them make the world a funner place to be at, she believes. she smiles to herself. tomorrow, brand new day, brand new blessings. new encounters, new experience.

you see, she is not content just yet. she yearns for more. she is gonna challenge Him for more :)

just another post

okay okay, so maybe i'm not that stressed out RIGHT NOW.. But it felt wrong not posting it. ugh. stress. cant have too much of it, cant have too little of it. the reduction kit is for anyone and everyone with stress. :)

oh well, will be off for a 2-week long break! Doubt I'll be able to get internet access so...

 Au revoir!
     Allez ciao!
          Itte kimasu!
                Byebye!
     
Thii na wega!
(you probably cant guess what language that is muahahahah)

 Kolala po!
   
   Fir milaan ge!

or as they said it here in Sabah -      
   
Doi noh ko noh!!

note:

its hard keeping focused on God. to constantly carry our crosses is something easier said than done.. courage Lord, I need courage..

what's even harder, secrets. Our mouths can sometimes be oh-so-EVIL.

To be Christ-like! Saying no when you're supposed to.. learning. still learning..

gonna be deprived of the internet! yet i will survive..and very very sure i wont be missed :( hope everyone's hols is going great as well!

Nothing is as simple as we hope it will be.
Jim Horning

holidayy

saya just realized that holiday time means relearning time.

saya rasa saya tidak ada cukup masa untuk mengenjoy holiday saya

namun, saya akan jumpa cousin saya yang disayangi jumaat ini

saya akan mengannoy mereka selama 17 jam..

>=D ---- evil smiley lol

okayyy

to bring notes for the holiday or NOT to bring notes.. that is the question. dang it.

to end, a lovely quote introduced by Anushya..

“Forgiveness is the fragrance that the violet sheds on the heel that has crushed it.” Mark Twain

To be like a violet.. a flower crushed.. destroyed. yet still leaving a fragrance.. can it possibly be?

"It is not enough just to stop and smell the flowers as you walk thru life. One must also regularly plant the seeds for new ones, as a gift for other dreamers to come." Anon.

o.v.e.r

When the world has seen the light.. they will dance with joy like we're dancing now :)

Yes, its true. Summative is indeed OVER.
it was weird not meeting Shalini and Natashini to study after so long rotting in the pbl room. PBL 18 - u will be missed for the next 1 month.... NOT! ah the gift of sarcasm. :D

One thing that took a while for me to realize this past few weeks is the fact that God is indeed sovereign. After everything that has happened. After so much questions. The tears. Doubts. Anger. The transition from 'Why God' to 'Yes God' has not been an easy one. But the amazing thing about my God is that he heals. He brings peace. He brings joy. Truly his grace kan.. ITS LIKE NO OTHER. His peace? Undescribable. Lord, thank you for bearing with me even during my season of disbelief and doubt. For those who knew Margie.. Guys. we know she's in a better place! Lord let us grief knowing your will has been done.. even with the grief let your presence come. I still have yet to understand why things happen the way they have. But whatever you have planned God, its going to be amazing.

Rocky if you're reading this. jgn ko stress! You are in my prayers.. and yes, u will get well very soon :)

More things have happened that has been breaking.. Things that make you go, 'Crap. There is more to life! I should be living life to the fullest' Its a wake up call people! I look at some people and i just dont get how they can worry about the tiny things. the unimportant. when theres so much more to life. Life is short. as cliched as it sounds, its true.. oh-so-true! we are made for a purpose. I hope no one ever goes throught the pain and grief but it makes us stronger. stronger people are passionate people. people who realize that yes, its all about him. its always been about him. never about us. never. First exam is over.. but more to come. BRING IT ON muahahahhaa. Its perfect timing la that a break's finally here!

its great being home though its only for a week now and a week after i come back from the states. will be heading to kk probably tomorrow.. or maybe the day after? Lance and Mamai is here.. with Aunty Nelly at the moment. Lord, indeed by your stripes.. healing will take place. healing Lord.. complete healing.

After everything's been said and done, after everything that has happened.. as devastating as things were, as much pain has been felt, God is still here. True I cant see him. True at times I feel lost. But he is there. his presence, his love, his mercy. no words to use la. Thank you Lord.

An amazing thing that God really revealed to me for this past few weeks is the fact that I am blessed with awesome friends in uni :) Guys, for cheering me on, for making my day.. the smiles, the laughter. They will not be forgotten :) LiLing's no more fooling around cd+craziness+huggss, Mummy Anushya's wonderful snack supply+more hhugsss*GRIN*, Jinlin's randomness and his comforting sms, MeiXin's huggss!!, Korwoi's bubbly randomness, Sabby's awesome friendship (your prayers,your words,your life exudes a heart that mirrors God's love..i.am.honoured. :P).. to the countless others who've been fantastic blessings in my life in this short time in IMU so far.. Timothy the cynic (and NARCISSTIC-ist?? :P), ZIA the hug supplier! (we shall movie again soon!! sem 2.. sem2..:P), Natashini, my soulmate(AHEM AHEM), Shamara the incredible housemate who knows too much about me now.. (crap!), Jeremy, the random person i occasionally meet who knows what to say and what not to say at the right times lol. Jeremy Joseph, the person with good taste in music haha, Jien and Nic the most annoying and lovable couple i knoww :P **just for the record, this is NOT meant to be an emo post muahahahah** and to the many more I have yet to name! i am blessed :)


'The simplest things are often the truest.'
Richard Bach

you

To be able to say 'nothing' but knowing that you know that we both know its anything but nothing (it ACTUALLY makes sense..)

To be able to uplift each other as we run this race together side by side?

To be completely comfortable with silence. To realize that words are unnecesary.

To argue and fight, to be completely silly with, to accept each and every flaw.

To talk about more than just the superficial. To share God encounters with people. To be passionate about God together!

To face the world together. To remind me to always get back to the basics.

To be transparent. To hurt and be hurt, yet love and be loved.

The opposite of love is not hate, it's indifference." Elie Wiesel :)

To know that you'll never be indifferent!

To never be content with routine.

To live recklessly

To follow him, The author and perfector of my faith. no matter what the cost.

To finally understanding who he is

To share life with you.

One day..


You :)


You see, who you are counts.

“I swore never to be silent..We must always take sides. Neutrality helps the oppressor, never the victim. Silence encourages the tormentor, never the tormented.” Elie Wiesel, (Romanian born American Writer. Nobel Prize for Peace in 1986. b.1928)