Thursday, May 29, 2008

random

a friend told me to check this out.

life in imu

funnyyyy

check it out :)

http://youtube.com/watch?v=VUxU0fJmdDY

Patience

For the revelation awaits an appointed time; it speaks of the end and will not prove false. Though it linger, wait for it; it will certainly come and will not delay. [Habakkuk 2:3]

When you read the word 'patience', we get the picture of sitting in a beach chair with waves tickling our toes, waiting for God to tell you whats next.

Patience is more than this.

Picture yourself as a stone statue carved into the mountain as the surf pounds you year after year, yet you remain in place. The ability to have this kind of patience comes from having a CLEAR VISION OF GOD.

Everyone experiences questions and doubts, but as we follow this path we begin to get a clearer picture. Its no more an abstract painting. the lines make sense. the squiggles give meaning. We soon become like the statue in the ocean. nothing can push us of our path. nothing can break your will. its that kind of patience that makes you stronger.

ah yes, He is faithful. strength to the weary? hope to the hopeless, love to the.. unloved :)

Sunday, May 25, 2008

KILL IT!!

Taken from WIkipedia - Cockroaches are among the hardiest insects on the planet, some species capable of remaining active for a month without food, or being able to survive on limited resources like the glue from the back of postage stamps. Some can go without air for 45 minutes or slow down their heart rate.

It is popularly suggested that cockroaches will "inherit the earth" if humanity destroys itself in a nuclear war. Cockroaches do indeed have a much higher radiation resistance than vertebrates, with the lethal dose perhaps 6 to 15 times that for humans.



And wonderfully, they have chosen to grace my bathroom with their presence. Even daring to ENTER MY ROOM! the horrible creatures.

what amazes me (actually, what freaks me out).. is the fact they take so long to die. even after putting the anti-cockroach poison thingy. they lie there moving their legs and feelers. ugh. Last nite tho, Anushya and Loshana came over to see an apartment for rent and Anushya as the amazing mummy she is :P decided to take matters into her own hands. There came the rolled newspaper and *SSMAACKK!!!SSMMAACKK!!SSMMAACCKK!!!* i shall not go into detail. to say the least - it was brutal. i can never look at my bathroom floor the same anymore.. muahahahaha

For that, Anushya Lim, i owe u my life. or at least a drink at the mamak. :)
So I changed my mind bout something.

Life is worth the living. everysinglesecondofit.

lalalala.

Whats cool tho? Rubix Cubes and energizer bunnies! :)

i have YET to solve one.. but there is hope! i hope. wat about the bunnies? i met one today.

lalalala..

anyway, Bey, different people have different taste laa. jst because theirs tidak ngam with yours doesnt mean your taste any better. THERE! >=)

Church tomorrow! Havent been for Kingdom Culture due to the stressness of needing to study. Church is family. my family :) and i love my family ( :

Thursday, May 22, 2008

My Blogs

Ashvini - the brown woman
Esther -
the cheerleader
Fatin - the almost lover
Jien - the squasher
JinLin - the terlalu kurus one
Lannel - the songwriter
Liling - the charmed one
Meriell - the budak
Nicole - the teddy bear
Sab - the other half
Tim - the cynic
Timo - the swimmer
Vidya - the panda
Yew - the fisherman
Ziiiiii - the music junkie


Boo

Hello. You have come to Natasha's blog.

She first used this blog for updates for friends and family back home but now is utilising it for better reasons. From rantings, it evolved to bits&pieces because she realized she's done ranting about her life and is going to embrace life and the stuff in it!

She chooses to blog on random things that occur to her, thus revealing bits of her life here. She loves her own space and has been known to hibernate for weeks end with no human contact. 

She loves good food and has a little roundness to prove it mwahaha. She's surrounded by crazy people and enjoys every single second with them :D

She's a walking musical with something always playing in her mind (think Scrubs Musical meets Sesame street). She's got no cares about what people think (to a certain extent lol) but have yet to resort to breaking out in dance. (We wont want to see that now, would we?) She's got her emo moments and her high-on-dope moments with every other moment ranging between the two. ( if that even makes sense :/ )

Lastly, she's a child of God. A daughter of the most high. She is his beloved and he is hers. She's currently in the process of learning as much as she can about him and his word. She has learnt that she cannot earn his love nor his blessings. She's learning the art of surrender and trusting him. She's in a race worth running in :)

Monday, May 19, 2008

updates!

havent updated the blog lately. someone (i-wont-mention-who) has to STOP asking me to update the blog! haha. but thanks tho for the 100++ reminders! haha

anyway, just got back from Sabah this afternoon.. had a great time back home but i dont think i'll be taking short breaks to go back anytime soon!

SO much has happened i dont know where to start.. Okay, maybe the most annoying thing i've had to endure lately was getting my US visa at the embassy. ughhh.
i will spare the details because i do NOT want them thinking i want to blow up the place! LOL
one thing i will say tho.. it was definitely an INTERESTING experience (note the sarcasm).


they REJECT me
. they-rejected-me! ughhh =''(

but yes, with full of dignity and grace, I WILL REAPPLY haha.

oh oh, watched Ironman and Narnia over the past 2 weeks. Watched Ironman with Jinlin, Kor Woi, Mei Xin and Ling Lingy :P i think i speak for Jin Lin and Li Ling when i say I LOVED it haha. sorry guys for being too, ahem, loud. i dont mind watching it again. and i PROMISE to be quiet O=) Narnia was good too..tho not as good as the first one. Got to watch it in SANDAKAN. wow. i am still trying to get used to the fact that Sandakan is finally maju-ing!

Well, went back to Sandakan on Friday and after 4 months i got to see my babies :) Pictures to come soonnnn.. Who I didnt get to see tho? SHEILA!! As si An and Mary puts it.. she's a VERY BUSY WOMAN. haha Sheil, if you're reading this.. I MISS YOU! wanted to meet so many people in so short a time :( what is this! oh well, we shall meet soon.. even if i have to go to the Phil myself :)

okay, now down to the real deal. Summative 1 for ME108 is on the 20th of JUNE dang it. bout a month to go and yes, i still have time to waste here in this blog. *sigh* library.. tomorrow.. HERE I COME

irony. --> Phil 2:14 - "Do everything without complaining or arguing"
Life doesnt always go our way does it. but then again, if it does, we wouldnt need God now, would we? good point.

my goodness. I'm really ranting! needs to go get songs for cf practice now. the rantings shall continue soon..

Wednesday, April 30, 2008

i can melt...!

I quote a uni friend who said 'i will melt when someone sings this to me'.. JinLin its so true! I will melt too! haha. David Cook's rendition of Mariah Carey's 'Always Be My Baby' has definitely entered my top emo songs list.



Which brings me to something.. hmm. one thing i am sure i learnt here in imu - not cranial nerves, CNS, PNS, Special Senses & atrioventricular-what-nots *evil grin* - but of course the term EMO. never gave it much thought until it became a daily issue here. u will always here about someone emo-ing. therefore, this whole post is dedicated to uncovering the truth behind the term 'being oh-so-EMO'.

haha. okay, so i googled 'definition-emo'. what did i get??

  1. 1. (n.) Abbreviated from "emotive hardcore", relating to a genre of music coined due to a band's usage of emotional and personal lyrics.

  2. 2. (adj.) An individual who is a follower of emo music.

    Example: You're so emo.


The Difference between Emo And Goth:
Emos Hate themselves
Goths hate Everyone
Emos Want to Kill themselves
Goths Want to kill Everyone

Okay, basically I paused for a second because the emo people that I know DO NOT WANT TO KILL THEMSELVES. at least as far as I know la. hmm. i dont even think they hate themselves. shows how much u can trust the web now huh...

anyway, instead of going back to my much loved Marieb, I decided to check a few other websites. lookee wat i found..

emo (comparative more emo, superlative most emo)

  1. Emotional; sensitive.
  2. Associated with youth subcultures embodying emotional sensitivity
So yes, to be emo is to be sensitive. to know that yes, there is a part in you that's still tender and not hardened because life can just be mean at times. To know that you still get goosebumps listening to that one song that reminds you of that someone :P

So go ahead, be emo. we have a heart for a reason. :) oh oh, me wants to type more! but laptop battery ddyyinggg.. oh well, i can melt.. i can melt! LOL


random thoughts

yeap thats rite. things are slowly starting to fall in place after 3 months... (its been exactly 3 months since i left home *sigh*)

things falling into place = routine
waking up... lectures,
talking,
pbl room bonding,
study,
room-bed..,
sleep.
of course in the process, tiny, forgettable, minute things happen. things that we're oblivious of. things that we think dont matter. yet. they do. they matter dang it! funny how we fail to realize how big those small things are... ah, what are they? the God-stories of my life :) the people i meet.. the stories we share, the life we lead.. the God-stories - they never end. u see, he is gracious!

there must be more to life than this.

I KNOW there's more to life.

I was browsing through facebook today and came across a rather interesting group.. the name was somethin' like 'by the rate i'm going i'll be flunking med school'
the truth? i feel i am.
not because its SO tough. heavens NO!
the passion? I need the passion. I need to be driven. Purpose? Need it.desperately.

Stop already with the routine. Its time to stop limiting Him. he has so much to offer. I remember the pastor preaching one Sunday bout coming to God with expectancy. What does it mean to come pregnant? to come filled with something unexplainable.. that it'll give birth into a radical lifestyle. unplanned. uncalled for. reckless. to be recklessly in love with Him?? to forget about what the world thinks. to be at ease knowing its only him that matters. nothing else.

Yet feelings!!!!! ugh they come when u DONT WANT THEM TO. been overcome with this feelings that are oh-so-nice.. the 'could-have-been' feelings. the 'wat-if' feelings. ah yes, the Spirit is willing but the flesh is oh-so-weak.

Yet, he renews our strength. He knows our limits..never will he put us through things greater than what we can bear.. my amazing God never lets me Go. He proves it over and over and over again. he.never.lets.go. amazing? u bet! he gives strength to the weak.. sometimes as the 'seasoned' Christian we tend to overanalyze God. we put him in a box and come up with a whole list of who he is..

1.He is GOD
2.he is merciful.
3.he is a jealous God
4. he is holy

yada yada yada... we put him in a tiny box. we label him. big.mighty.righteous.loving. we tend to sort of know what he will do. we expect things to happen. we go 'Ah, yes, we expected that to happen. its God what..' ughh its time we stop limiting him!no more telling him how far he should go. we need the childlike faith - knowing he is our father yet NOT knowing how big, how vast, how awesome his love is for us. to accept his unconditional love for what it is.. no strings attached. the depths of his grace.. AMAZING. i have yet to understand fully. how the creator of heaven and earth can bother with something as worthless as me. yet thats the amazing thing about grace =)

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

untitled

It was a very very productive day yesterday in a NON-nerd sense. haha

supposed to have studied but.. better leave it unsaid :)

anyway, it was productive because I got to talk to SOME people who somehow disappeared into thin air (,'')...
Sharon, Abbey, Kevin & Elizabeth all in a day :P i say WELL DONE ahhhaaa. i miss you all =(

It was great to see that God was working in everyone's life in different ways all at the same time. Esp for Kev and Abbey - I'm SO proud of you guys! i'm truly honoured with the fact you guys still pray for me :) Its a pleasure being in this journey with you guys. Eph 5:15-17.. '.. Make the most of every opportunity...Understand what the Lord wants you to do...'

Have a great day :)

Monday, April 21, 2008

My place :)

Well, another amazing thing that happened to me when I came was the fact I got a FANTASTIC place to stay! When it was already confirmed that I was supposed to come to KL, first thing I had to do was to get a place to stay! me got the contacts and called so many different people bout accommodation. It was quite tiring coz everytime I called someone they said the place was either already taken or i had to wait until the middle of the year to move in.. aih, well, I left to KL a few days after my registration day and the plan was to stay in Puchong and travel to IMU everyday. I was okay with that 'coz it meant I could play with Achillesssss! hehe. anyway, Mummy and I reached KL bout 1 pm on a Wednesday and we went directly to uni to register. I wanted to go the following day only but daddy said must go that day itself!! *sigh* anyway, we reached imu late in the afternoon and got registered. remember, I still hadnt gotten a place to stay! anyway, we checked out a girl's room in Vista C but she was only moving out in May.. hmpff.. THEN, my dad has a fantastic plan - just try asking the uni whether there were ANY rooms for let.. and yea, it was ady 6++pm.. we went and the office was ady closed! but there was this Malay lady (Miss Khairun).. she told us to wait while she arranged something for us. Fantastically, she told us that there was a Sri Lankan family that had rented a whole apartment and asked for female tenants only A FEW HOURS AGO. wow. i know. haha.

well, we went to this apartment and I fell in love with it immediately! <3 it was fully renovated and wasnt like the typical vista apartments :P The room was huge and very very nice :)
again, woah. haha. here's a picture i took when I first moved in. Its ady quite homey now la but I havent taken any pictures.. I'll leave them for another post. muahahah.


Me dont know how to terbalikkan this picture =s but yes, this is the bathroom =D



moral of the story : God IS faithful
(more pictures to come soon..)

My story-Pt I

As most of u know.. me coming to IMU was definitely NOT preplanned. It was such a rush I felt that in NO way was it God's plan. and as usual, he proved me WRONG! i applied for IMU (International Medical University) very, very, very last minute. also, i applied for the August intake. I hadnt gotten an answer from God and I had already decided to take half a year of to truly seek God and find out what his plan was for my life. thus, all my uni applications were for July-August intakes. I was ecstatic to get accepted into Melb Uni in July! Sharon and Sarah would know.. the plan was always to go to Melbourne together =( we would never have known God had different plans in mind.. Hmmm..

anyway, me applied for Doulos and ady planned to go.. yet AGAIN, God had different plans. Firstly, the timing was never rite for me to meet the uncle in KK who was supposed to arrange everything for me.. Secondly.. well.. banyak la. will leave the details for a different post hehe. soo, the plan was to get a job in Sandakan! and help in church :) i already filled in the form to work in the Properties Department for IJM! gosh. i had to write an essay bout my strengths and weaknesses la.. aiyo. THEN, the phone call came for me to go for the IMU interview.. it was right after CNY i remember.. i stayed back with Sharon the kuku girl and she, as the faithful hamba, followed me to imu for my interview!! haha. i remember her praying for me - 'Lord, that YOUR WILL BE DONE. We surrender shasha's future in your hands' FUIYO. trust me. be careful what u pray for 'coz God will definitely answer. needless to say, his will is not always our own will. . after the interview we went to 1utama.. i remember us getting an extremely WEIRD chinese taxi driver who cheated on the meter!

anyway.. to continue this story.. a few days later when i was in puchong, i got a phone call from imu. they tell me their letting me join the Feb intake. and of course, being the smart person i am *cough cough*, i immediately say 'NO THANK YOU' I mean, obviously, i had no plan on starting uni so early. basically i felt i deserved this break. i NEEDED this break. i called my dad and he says TAKE IT! i felt like dying. why? coz i didnt think i would fit in medical school. come one la. me? medical school? har har har.

well, what made me change my mind? it was definitely the wise words of a WISE person :P she said 'Shasha, if u go to med school knowing u cant do it but u eventually DO make it, doesnt it glorify God even more? theres a reason that he's opened all these doors. It'll be a testimony to how amazing our God is because he sustained you in uni.' and of course, i was there - speechless. it took a few days for everything to sink in. (especially the fact that i lost my much anticipated breakkk *sigh* )

But i remember when Uncle Thomas talked to me in church the sunday before i left.. I felt such peace as we talked about changes in life and when he asked whether i was really going..i knew immediately what the answer was. for the first time i felt AMAZING peace. I was terrified of going to uni.. but somehow God really really REALLY sustained me! well, thats the beginning part of my story. part 2 coming soon.. :)

yeeelllooowww :)

Hey everyone! Natasha here :) Welcome to the blog of yours truly :P
well.. i'm not very much a fan of blogging
*sigh* but i think this is a really good way of keeping u guys updated! me so sorry i cant email everyone :(..
But i hope u guys can find
the time to read this. haha. i think this blogging thingy very cool la. can change font and size of the text muaahahhahaha.. (sorry.. SS sikit :D)

Guys, I'm sure each of us have had God-stories and God-encounters this first few months of 2008. one thing for sure - God is
awesome! Theres been ups and downs but in the end its always so clear - he never leaves. its something so simple yet sometimes we forget the basics of life..

hmm, well, this post is supposedly me telling you that i'll be updating u all with life here in
IMU.. please bare with me hehe. if u get bored, simple. just click on the [x] on the corner of this screen! i will definitely try to keep this active..

lame pick up lines are the so in rite now (yes, i know i'm lame sharon) 

---> My love for you is like constipation.. 'coz i cant let you go :P